I was so shocked when I found out that a guy I thought I met him for the first time at my home church today was actually a little brother of a friend of mine a long time ago.  He got so tall and tall and changed his face or something and grew tall and got tall and tall and got a new face.  I did not recognize him at all until he told me...................  I thought he was kidding or something.


And I was shocked again when I found out that a cute little boy I used to babysit when he was in first grade or something is going to be in senventh grade this fall.  MIDDLE SCHOOL.  WHAT?  He told me he didn't like girls when he was in third grade or something.  WHAT?  He is taller than I am now. (I am not even surprised by that now.)  WHAT?


I was shocked again when I saw a pretty little big girl on a swing in front of the church and noticed that she was a girl I taught at Korean school five years ago.  She was four when I met her and now she is turning 9 soon.  Okay this is not that shocking but it is.



It's so weird to see new faces that are old faces.  Or old faces that are new faces.  O GOD.  People change over time.  Things change over time.  I mean, change is good.  Growing and moving forward are good.  Nevertheless, a small part of me wants to find comfort in constancy.  O GOD.  You are the only one that is unchanging and eternally faithful.  I give you thanks.




By the way, BABIES, can you stay as you are now?

There is always fun after pain.  Then pain after fun.  Then fun after pain.....  Yet, I like when God challenges me.  I had way too much fun last weekend.  I realize that I have so much work this week... for next week's fun.

But still, I have to admit that school is really draining me.  Orgo + Neuro + Neuro writing combination may have been a little too much for me as a sophomore... And this root canal wouldn't let me chew some good meat.  Man, I never had a cavity!  How did this happen?!?!  (Some people say it is stress....)

I will get through, though.  His grace and starbucks shots enable me.


I love this part from one of my favorite songs 'unashamed': an awesome oxymoron.  The truth.

Here I am, at your feet, in my brokenness complete.

In my brokenness complete, here I am, at your feet.
My brokenness complete.
My incompleteness complete.

Haha me singing it also made my friends laugh.... for some reason

Happy birthday, Jesus!

Would you believe me if I said
that we are the ones who can make the change in the world today?
Would you believe me if I said
that all of your dreams in your heart can come true today?
Would you believe me if I said
that life could be all that you want it to be today?

Would you believe me if I said
that God can make miracles happen today?
Would you believe me if I said
that you don't need to wait for the answers before you step out in faith?
Would you believe me if I said
that nothing is ever IMPOSSIBLE for god?

And If I had wings I would fly
'Cause all that I need, you are
And if the world caved in around me
To you I'd still hold on
'Cause you're all that I believe
And the one that created me
Jesus, because of you, I am FREE!

- Free by Hillsong

Wow..  While I was studying I just found a drop of red blood cells on my notebook.  Whoa..  People in the study lounge probably think that I was picking my nose or something.  I want to get up and shout out, nuh-uh!  This is a pure nosebleed from lack of sleep and concentration!!!!  I should tell Mom, Dad, and E about it hehe.  Hope that my grades will reflect it though. 

One final down, two more to go..  Seriously, I want to drop everything that I am doing right now and just want to go home and sleep on my bed.  Like for more than 5 hours.

In the midst of stress, this new song we learned last week helps me release some tension.  Although the lyrics are not that relevant to my current circumstances (while EVERYTHING is relevant), I like the mood of it (although I didn't really like it when I first heard it)

As surely as the sun will rise
You'll come to us
As certain as the dawn appears

You'll come let your glory fall
As you respond to us
Spirit reign flood our hearts
With holy fire again